It is more than agreements and tickets and comments

"I realized for the first time that being a Christian didn't just mean getting into heaven - it meant living and loving and glorifying my savior with every day, every breath. I went back to my room and prayed for Jesus to not only be my savior, but my ruler, my master..."- Didi Nordyke. NEXT testimony.

Are we...
Am I...
...Better question; are you my ruler today? Yes. Am I serving you? Not whole heartedly. Is moving out of my apartment serving you? Nah, I don't think so. I'm just moving out ya know, I haven't involved you really. That has my story lately; I've just been doing shit. I say shit not just to add dramatic effect. I mean really let's call my work lately what it is: stuff, meaninglessness. Shit is all the stuff that your body doesn't need so it gets rid of it. The stuff I have been doing lately has not been that nourishing to my relationship with You. (maybe I should repent for saying shit)

You are very present and involved, I'm just kinda not. I haven't really been actively rebelling but I haven't been actively involved with you either. I mean I sort of do. At times, specifically when I need you. Like doing a bible study, "Oh I need you I better get focused" or talking with my parents about our tumultuous year or our family, "Oh we need to pray, I better get focused" or I am making big decisions "Oh I need you, time to read my bible."

John was right, the average American spends 10 minutes a day with the Lord. Aaaaaa DAY. I have been bringing down the average lately.

At this point I feel like, "okay I'm glad I got this out, and realize this." Because neglecting the Lord in whatever I am doing: quite time, study, moving, eating, talking, driving, ALL if it, is just really not okay. That is called distance, individuality. God is not my dad back home while I'm off at college, all the while he loves me and settles on seeing me on my next vacation. No, God is ACTIVELY relational. Jesus invaded my college and the holy Spirit is very present here and now. I need to get that.

Here is my next thought after that realization. "Okay sweet I get it.....Now that I do I am going to get back to moving." Like as long as I realize how messed up I am and comment on it via a blog all things are cool now and I can get back to life. That is missing the point! Being a christian is not about agreeing with God and getting into heaven and only being involved with God when you need Him. Being a Christian means setting you foremost energy, joy, and satisfaction on the living God! Jesus is not some dead guy that Paul and Peter knew but you don't! Jesus is just as alive today as He was 2000 years ago. Same guy, same God, same place, same reality.

Friends, we have got to read our bibles and set aside time to respond to the reality of God's presence. We do not live in a human created world, we live in God's world. Today's world is not different than the world 2000 years ago. It is the same rock and God is the same God. He doesn't go away or change or age with time; he is constant. We need to do what my friend Gurveer said, "We need to walk around like our Father runs the place!" He is a freshman, and he is cool.

And here is the thing, we need to not only agree with God being relational, constant and present, but be relational back! It is so easy for me to comment on my heart condition and God's truth, but that is not enough. I need to do something about it. (check out Josh Harris' and John Piper's comments on this).

Blogging about this provides me with some accountability. If I blog about this and then do nothing to change my actions I am foolish, I am a liar and a tool. I don't want to be a tool so I am going to go plug my phone in, because it keeps tweaking out, then call Jessica back and tell her I can't talk right now. Then I am going to go to coffee an breakfast and read my ESV bible. I am going to put off moving my washer/dryer unit until later--this will frustrate my dad, but that is okay because relationship with Dio needs to happen. Then I am going to finish moving remembering what Peter says in 1Peter 1:3-9, 17-21.

Remember and respond with me.

It's Game Time

I am at work right now. I should be working obviously, but yahoo tends to get the best of me.

"Wack a Kitty" is the new hottest selling game on the shelves. Check it out. What do you think?

Shelock Holmes

This is the new Sherlock Holmes movie by directed by Guy Richie. Legit? I think so!

24

24 just ended. They resolved nothing. They left us hanging. I do not agree with this season. What the fish Jack? Step up and resolve the earth please. We are pissed.

Election

Thoughts:
I like election. I like many points of Reformed Theology. I like Armenianism. But, it does not matter what I like or dislike. My God is who He is, regardless if I like it or not. I am at a loss of understanding in His hand in our reality. You providential, sovereign, all loving, knowing powerful God.

You awful God my thoughts are terribly frustrated. I chuckle at my inadequacy.

How do I reconcile Reformed Theology with 1 Timothy 4:10? How do I reconcile 1 Timothy with John 10? Oh what a mystery my God is!

Prayer:
"I like you Lord, but I don't get You. I'm just pretty sure you like me and want to be involved in 'my' reality. I'm pretty sure you want me to submit 'my' reality to yours, understanding that I am not a god. I'm pretty sure I don't sit on a throne, I act like I do. I need to give that back to you. Yeah, I'm sorry about that. Will you fix me please, I tend to mess with your people. Sorry about that too. Jesus people are going to read this....actually no one may read this hahaha....aaaahhhh, wow that was funny. Anyway if they do, just make sure they pick up a desire to talk with you about 'their' lives. Yeah, that is a good request I think. Alright Lord, Father, I'm a kid and I don't get you....just wanted to let you know that....in case you weren't aware? Okay, good I'm glad we got that straightened out; You're really big and I'm....well....I'm just not that big haha. Okay I have a math final tomorrow. That is the big daddy of tests, so I should stop blogging and man up and study. PEACE!" (Yes readers, that was a gangster lingo "peace" with a additionally throwed peace sign created with my fingers.)

Definition notes:
awful-full of awe; reverential.
terrible-formidably great. exciting terror, awe, or great fear.
frustrated-thwart, baffle.

The Cook and the Turkey

Charlie: How are you doing?

Landon: When asked "how are you doing?" I always wish I had something really impacting or honest to say, other than just "I'm good" you know what I mean? It is so cliche! I feel like asking a person how they are you doing is like a cook sticking a thermometer into a baking turkey then taking it out and trying to read it but he doesn't know what Fahrenheit is or the first thing about cooking a turkey!

I'm a pitiful cook my friend. And I'm a turkey still in the oven.

Anyway all that to say....I'm pretty good, thanks for asking.

Taking the Punches

Once you realize you can take a few punches you realize you are not made of glass. You realize you can make it. You begin to like it. You begin to push your limits. It is addicting and it feels good.

I stayed up past midnight. I slept on a coach. I woke up at 5am. I am at 3 cups of coffee. I am sick and tired. I am wired and I think I like it. Knowing that I can finish my term paper and survive the day feels somewhat empowering. I think I can do this college thing. But more than that I want to.

Maybe this all really is true. But really weighing it, these feelings are all probably the coffee....

"Cup number 3.."
"Yes Landon?"
"Goodbye."

....Pounded.

Reading

I want to give a kid with issues a little affirmation....I read your blog.

Im glad we have the technology we do in this world to keep in somewhat contact with people who are far away. It is nice to hear what you are chewing on.

P.S. Go read "Death By Love" by Mark Driscoll......just kidding

Humble Beginings

Susan Boyle throwback