It is more than agreements and tickets and comments

"I realized for the first time that being a Christian didn't just mean getting into heaven - it meant living and loving and glorifying my savior with every day, every breath. I went back to my room and prayed for Jesus to not only be my savior, but my ruler, my master..."- Didi Nordyke. NEXT testimony.

Are we...
Am I...
...Better question; are you my ruler today? Yes. Am I serving you? Not whole heartedly. Is moving out of my apartment serving you? Nah, I don't think so. I'm just moving out ya know, I haven't involved you really. That has my story lately; I've just been doing shit. I say shit not just to add dramatic effect. I mean really let's call my work lately what it is: stuff, meaninglessness. Shit is all the stuff that your body doesn't need so it gets rid of it. The stuff I have been doing lately has not been that nourishing to my relationship with You. (maybe I should repent for saying shit)

You are very present and involved, I'm just kinda not. I haven't really been actively rebelling but I haven't been actively involved with you either. I mean I sort of do. At times, specifically when I need you. Like doing a bible study, "Oh I need you I better get focused" or talking with my parents about our tumultuous year or our family, "Oh we need to pray, I better get focused" or I am making big decisions "Oh I need you, time to read my bible."

John was right, the average American spends 10 minutes a day with the Lord. Aaaaaa DAY. I have been bringing down the average lately.

At this point I feel like, "okay I'm glad I got this out, and realize this." Because neglecting the Lord in whatever I am doing: quite time, study, moving, eating, talking, driving, ALL if it, is just really not okay. That is called distance, individuality. God is not my dad back home while I'm off at college, all the while he loves me and settles on seeing me on my next vacation. No, God is ACTIVELY relational. Jesus invaded my college and the holy Spirit is very present here and now. I need to get that.

Here is my next thought after that realization. "Okay sweet I get it.....Now that I do I am going to get back to moving." Like as long as I realize how messed up I am and comment on it via a blog all things are cool now and I can get back to life. That is missing the point! Being a christian is not about agreeing with God and getting into heaven and only being involved with God when you need Him. Being a Christian means setting you foremost energy, joy, and satisfaction on the living God! Jesus is not some dead guy that Paul and Peter knew but you don't! Jesus is just as alive today as He was 2000 years ago. Same guy, same God, same place, same reality.

Friends, we have got to read our bibles and set aside time to respond to the reality of God's presence. We do not live in a human created world, we live in God's world. Today's world is not different than the world 2000 years ago. It is the same rock and God is the same God. He doesn't go away or change or age with time; he is constant. We need to do what my friend Gurveer said, "We need to walk around like our Father runs the place!" He is a freshman, and he is cool.

And here is the thing, we need to not only agree with God being relational, constant and present, but be relational back! It is so easy for me to comment on my heart condition and God's truth, but that is not enough. I need to do something about it. (check out Josh Harris' and John Piper's comments on this).

Blogging about this provides me with some accountability. If I blog about this and then do nothing to change my actions I am foolish, I am a liar and a tool. I don't want to be a tool so I am going to go plug my phone in, because it keeps tweaking out, then call Jessica back and tell her I can't talk right now. Then I am going to go to coffee an breakfast and read my ESV bible. I am going to put off moving my washer/dryer unit until later--this will frustrate my dad, but that is okay because relationship with Dio needs to happen. Then I am going to finish moving remembering what Peter says in 1Peter 1:3-9, 17-21.

Remember and respond with me.